Recently i lost a VERY important person in my life. my best friend. I guess we hung on to each other in the hope that our friendship would go back to normal and unfortunately it just didn't. although she was prepared to let go of the friendship, i really wasn't and i have been having a really hard time with dealing with the loneliness that i have felt for these past few weeks. The reason it has been so hard is because i don't have anybody that i feel particularly close to. I have my mum and sister and i appreciate everything that they have done for me but i still need a group of close friends.
My best friend meant a lot to me. she was there for me when both my great nans died, my Grandad died and when two of my ex's treated me like utter crap. she was even there for me when i later went counselling. It was a five year friendship which made all the more harder to deal with. i even contemplated committing suicide.
After thinking about it i decided to change my life. I did small things like met up with a friend that i felt i was getting closer to (I always feel happier around this person and i think you should push out the people you feel negative around and pull in the people you feel positive around) , started jogging every morning at 6am as i feel uncomfortable jogging when most people are up and probably staring at me and made myself busy with college work. Even though i'm adding these small changes i still need to add more. I need to fill my life with things that make me happy so that i am unable to spend time thinking negatively.
do the same! what do you like to do in your free time? and if there's nothing, try new things. find a hobbie. just do everything to enjoy life and change the negative thoughts to positive. Just in case you can't think of anything here's some things that i enjoy:
Art
Baking
Dance
Nail art
Makeup
Swimming
Shopping
YouTube
I really hoped this helped in some way. Have a great day! x
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